I have been trying to understand why I do the same things over and over again. I make the same mistakes. I turn down the same path. I keep looking into the sun, even though it hurts my eyes.
I know that I am special. I know that I am different. I know that I am more massive and expansive than my skin. But I have struggled every day with it.
I love who I am. I love how I see the world. I relish in the fact that I stand in the sun and like to feel the heat.
But I needed to learn how to shade my eyes.
I have been reading The 12 Secrets of Highly Successful Woman by Gail McMeekin, and within the first few pages I found my sunglasses and I am ready to follow the sun! I will follow it now and it will never set for me again!
MY Strengths & Necessary Talents
(which often become my downfalls!)
- I am over sensitive and therefore too thin-skinned. I want to avoid being out in the world too much. (It is getting worst as I get older)
- I don't trust my own worth and am afraid to charge enough for my work.
- I am intuitive and care about other people and become distracted by other people's life decisions, which prevents me from being functional in my own life.
- I am able to go from project to project, but become overwhelmed and sometimes not able to focus.
- I am independent and can be afraid to ask for emotional and business support when I need it.
- I can be severely critical, but my perfectionism can be paralyzing and prevent me from releasing my full creativity.
- I don't always want to confront people, which means they try to use me as an scapegoat for their problems because I am the one who does not follow protocol. This can leave me isolated and lonely.
- I am not as confident as I appear. Being hurt has left me with a damaged self-esteem and a realization of my lack of expertise in certain areas.
- I sometimes work myself until I am sick. Neglecting myself but never neglecting others.
- I struggle with my need to be alone to create. I don't want to hurt the feelings of my loved ones.
- I can make simple things complex due to the lack of self esteem.
- I am often sad because of the inability to realize my creative dreams in my day to day life.
- I am often fearful of sharing who I really am and telling the truth about myself for fear of disapproval from the ones who opinions I value.
- I feel guilty about not pursuing a traditional career path. But am not secured by what others search for in a job like a pension plan, etc.
- I feel overwhelmed sometimes because I am good at so many different things.
- I have a fear of being rejected.
- I am afraid of taking my creativity full force because my life style and opinions may hurt the feelings of the ones I love.
- I AM AFRAID OF BEING LABELED AND REJECTED BY OTHERS BECAUSE I AM NOT AFRAID TO TO RISKS.
